i’m sorry you caught me sad
The series is made up of black and white self-portraits, some of which I later painted over by hand in blue, using acrylic on transparency, and then scanned back into the images. This gesture became a way of sitting with my sadness, confronting it, and marking the images with something that felt both intimate and uncomfortable.
The work is also a quiet letter, and an apology, to my partner, who often meets me in these moments.
Portugal, where he is from and where I have found a second home, threads through the images as a place of belonging and longing. A fragment from Florbela Espanca’s To a Young Girl appears handwritten by him, bringing in an external voice that holds both tenderness and defiance.
This is a project that will keep changing as I continue to live with these feelings, using photography, writing, and small gestures to make sense of them.